I keep thinking I'm losing it. Started with mild audio-visual hallucinations during the week and as time progressed, I kept having difficulties concentrating. I was getting waves of paranoia and fear and started feeling like something was chasing me, hounding at me every waking moment. Demons at the corner of my eyes, screaming at me.
By Friday during work I was having difficulties in conversation, losing words and replying with things that belonged in entirely different conversations. I feel like something is breaking apart my mental bonds and trying to break me.
The weekend has just made it worse so far. I've realised that at least one of the demons is myself. Yelling at me for my failures, for my transgressions. Yelling at me for every shortcoming I have. The worst part is that it isn't a new thing. This mental apparition has followed me around for so many years and has always had so much to berate me for.
I can't even hold you properly now, I'm sorry.
Regards,
Adam O'Grady
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