Flight of the Pariah

And just like that, I am shunned so easily as I was called back.

My dearest smother has taken it upon herself to remove me from her household. She told me to get out and doesn't want me back there it seems. This is over her saying that I am constantly on drugs, at all times. So I tried to tell her I wasn't and she flipped. She said I was a bad son, that my father was a bad role model and that I should just leave.

I think the one thing that made me snap and call her "despicable" after everything she's said and done and told me to do, was that she insulted my father. No one, not least my mother, has the right to do that, given he's one of the few reasons I'm still alive. Worse than this, in the years since they originally divorced, he never spoke a bad word of her and there she stands, spitting his name like venom.

So I'm at the Girlfriend's place, it seems I might be hear for a while. This isn't the first time it's happened either. I was kicked out of my dad's house when I was 15, but his reasoning was slightly more sound. I had just admitted to him I was bisexual and well, he was raised quite conservatively and couldn't really take it. I'm not saying what he did was right, but I know it was hard for him to deal with and I was being a shit to him as well.

But this action of my dearest Smother has annoyed me beyond belief. Every 3 months she goes off her rocker at me. So this move is probably for the best for now.

My freakin' God. I hate being this pissed off and depressed. I hate wanting to off myself. But that wouldn't really be nice to anyone I know.

Being in the army would be so much easier right now.

Regards,
Adam O'Grady